再见

至： 还存在的人类们。

本小姐决定把这个部落格关下来。经过几分钟的考虑年后，决定开过新的一个部落格。再见啦！

p/s: 如果有人还在这个连鬼影都没有的地方逗留着的话，想要我的心的部落格地址就请跟我拿啦～ 谢谢～

Sorry~

I went there as usual; to the place I once called HOME. I skipped a few weeks, some with valid reasons; some is pure laziness and hate of confrontation. I realize that I shut myself up when I was preparing myself, it wasn’t pleasant at all, not at all.

I stood at the stairs, looking down at the whole hall, it was like I’m watching a live movie, seems familiar but yet I feel like a stranger in that place. I do not fit it. I saw a couple of familiar faces, some that I’ve met before, some that had made promises to me and yet to fulfil it and some that disappoint me over and over again. My heart was hurt; I wanted to run off, far away from there.

I cried in the hall, I ask myself why do I need to torture myself like this. I do not feel happy; I do not feel like I belong there. I don’t understand why after all this while I tried to accept myself for who I am, my personality and my characteristic, people that I once called FAMILY pull me down and leave me there alone. They make me feel bad about myself. They make me feel like I’m not worthy and the things that I believe in are all bunch of lies! It was pure pressure.

Memories flash into my mind, I recalled those days when I first came and enjoyed every single moment of it. But sad to say, this feeling no longer exists in my heart. I can’t breathe, I need to run away.

When I walk out from the place I once called home, I whisper and said “I guess this is good bye. I’m sorry, I LOVE you, but I really can’t take it anymore. Forgive me.”. I cried in the car on my way back, is hard to ignore the things that you know deep down in your heart that it really exist, but yet the existent is torturing yourself. Maybe I just have to do it my way. I don’t know.

p/s: I will still be there for the historical moment, but after that, I really don’t know what awaits for me.

赛城回忆

前两天因为要去弄毕业前的手续，所以就一个人自己驾车去赛城。虽然这不会是我最后一次回去赛城，不过应该会是我最后一次走遍我呆了三年的大学的每一个角落。

如果要顺利地参加毕业典礼，我们必须到不同的Department做 Clearance，确保没有欠学校任何部门钱。所以我从一个Department 走到另一个Department，再到另一个Department。就连我在学校呆了三年去都没去过的Security Department我都去了。在一个小时里面走遍了学校个个角落，有点累，有点赶，却让我回想起很多很多在这校园里发生的事情。

经常在电视剧里看到那些人回到去过的地方会有画面浮现在眼前，我一直以为那些是骗人的，不过经过这次后我才发现原来是真的。我走过那些去过的地方时，眼前的人我不认识，但我却看见了自己。

经过FOE的课室时我想起以前和我朋友一起上课的情景。也想起自己一个人走去课室上课的画面。我还记得曾经有一段时间我常常一个人走到FOE的Tutorial Room温习功课。而令我印象最深刻的就是我曾经穿着蓝色的Baju Kurung，手抱着宏宏，在FOE的走廊那里跑来跑去。过了那个学期就没那么常到FOE上课了『因为开始用FOM Building』，会去到那里也是为了社团活动。很多活动的会议都会在那里的课室进行。有一次因为社团的活动FOE好像成了我第二个家，我一没上课就到那里。Career Fair 的Operation Room，我永远都会记得那个活动教会我的事情。

去图书馆的途中我经过Mistri Plaza，看到那里依旧有很多学生和商家在那里“开档”。Mistri Plaza只有在晚上和End of Semester 的时候才会清静，所以每当我经过那里的时候我都会绕道而过，不然的话短短几秒钟的路途可以用上几分钟。每一次经过那里时就会很多人开始“拉客”，要介绍社团的活动之类的事情，拿Flyers都拿到手软。不过我曾经也在那里“拉客”，当Mobile MC。那一次是DJ Club给我们机会去试试的，很好玩，很享受，很喜欢！除了这些“拉客”回忆之外，我还曾经一度在那里一个人温习功课。我记得那一次我兴致勃勃要去图书馆读书，可惜那个Security Guard Aunty说我的裤子短不能进『我的裤子明明就到膝盖，可是她还是说不够长！而且我要进Foyer而已叻！！！Foyer而已叻！！』。没办法之下就只好呆在Mistri Plaza 过时间咯。

到了Library ，我想起以前Library Foyer 装修之前的那个样貌。没有冷气，没有墙壁，只有脏兮兮的椅子。我记得我以前常常在那里和朋友讨论功课和Assignment，而且也常常在那里睡觉。进到Library里面，我看见以前的自己在用学校的电脑找资料，也看见以前的自己和一班朋友一起温习功课，当然也少不了自己一个人在角落睡觉的画面。

之后我走去我三年来去都没去过的Security。这一路上我经过很多地方，曾经在那些地方发生过的事情都一一浮现在眼前。在走廊上宣传Music Sharing Session， 停在MPH前面的跑车，翘课出来买鱼蛋吃的自己等等的回忆都浮现出来。甚至有一些是我已经遗忘很久的事情，记起来的时候我自己也惊吓了一下，原来自己有过这样的一段经历。

我那一天的最后一站是 FOM，我的Faculty Building，我上课的地方。我想，校园那么大最回忆的地方就是那里了吧！我常常在那里上课，所以我回想起很多我上课时做的坏事。我不是什么乖学生，所以常常因为爱睡而翘课。可是因为学校有拿Attendance， 不过一定的巴仙率就不能考试，所以还是会硬着头皮去上课。不过我依然爱睡，所以我常常上课到一半就借着上厕所的借口去找空着的课室睡觉。更夸张的是，如果我找不到空置的课室我就干脆到楼梯那里睡觉。想起来都觉得好笑！

我在想，学校是不是故意要我们走去不同的Department做Clearance以便我们可以走遍校园最后一次。说真的，很多回想起来的画面都是我遗忘已久的事情，却因为这一趟而记起来了。不过再回想起这些事情时，我发现有很多事情和当时自己认为会发生的事情有所差别。

我记得刚刚认识某人的时候，我以为我们可以做最好的朋友，可是现在的我们却如同陌生人，不去理会彼此的生活。我曾经和一些人很要好，以为这样的关系会维持到永远，可惜时间却残酷地证明了我们根本就是性格不合，变成了熟悉但不再要好的朋友。我们偶尔还是会关心一下对方，可是却不再在彼此的生活里扮演重要的角色。还有一些我想都没想过会成为朋友的人，却成了很要好的朋友。曾经一度认为彼此只是对方生命里的过客，但是缘分却让我们成了知心朋友。

说到底，人生无常。很多自以为理所当然的事情都有了改变。不过再怎么改变都好我还是很珍惜现在的生活。希望下个礼拜开始上班后我的生活依然那样无常。人生没有惊喜就不好玩了！

P/S: 那一天来得及和一些朋友见面。分别有Pecky和Hito，Kerry他们。开心死了！！不知道未来还有没有机会可以坐下来好好地跟他们谈天。想必开工后一定会没什么机会了，所以更珍惜每一次的相见。

我相信

结束实习已经有两个礼拜的时间了。实习，终于在一种很莫名其妙的情况下结束了。没有想到在实习结束前的三个礼拜我竟然拿了两个礼拜的假期，真的很不可思议。很多人以为两个礼拜的假期不用做工，很爽，可是对我来说却是一种折磨。

弄伤了我的背，我不能走，不能站，甚至连坐都是一个问题。我不能吹冷气，不能吃冰冷的食物。很多我很喜欢做的事情都因为我的背的状况而被迫停止。我的新加坡之旅也是因为这样而没有去。

可是庆幸的是，我的背已经好很多了。可以站比较久，坐比较久。已经没有像以前那样痛了。可是家人还是很担心。所以每一次爸妈提到我的背伤的时候我都会很不耐烦，因为我觉得自己很没有用，越是不想他们担心，却越是让他们担心了。

不过不管怎样都好，我相信我会好起来的！而且是很奇迹的那一种！！哈哈哈～ 有一天我可以跑，跳，爬！！！！ 像个孩子一样享受生活！呵呵

CarSifu Malaysia

I finished my internship just weeks ago and staying at home without nothing to do is kinna boring. With my back problem now, I find it hard to go jalan-jalan with public transport. I’m seriously thinking about getting a car, but to buy a brand new one is out of the topic! I cant afford that! The only solution for this problem is to get myself a second hand car.

But as I mentioned, I’m having my back problem, and going out the house is a major challenge for me. so how on earth am I going to find a car at home?! Haha~ luckily with internet soo advance today I found this website that sells second hand cars!!!

First of all, the design of the website is simple and user friendly. The front page itself already have the categories of cars that you can choose from. So you just need to click on the brand of cars that you are interested and wala! All the related post will appear! or if you have an specific model in mind, you can just type it in in the search box at the bottom center. And the same thing will happen, all related post will just pop up on your screen!!! After that, you can choose the location that is more convenient to you. I mean who the hell will want to go all the way to Johor to get a second hand car if you are staying in Penang right? So I pretty much like this application since is very convenient to the users!

After choosing the one you are interested in, you can just click in and the description of the car would appear to you. besides that there will be photos also (but some post don’t have~ I guess it depends to the seller). Then if you are really super interested, there is a small little form to fill in your details and just wait for the owner to contact you!! so easy!!!

And the best thing is registration with CarSifu is free!!!! Check It out today!